Waiting, waiting - going crazy - waiting, waiting...

This waiting game is killing me - my patience is wafer thin at the moment. I'm on cycle day 36!!! That would be about 12 days passed my normal date - but nothing has been normal since before the ET...
But at least I'm doing something about it - I'm seeing my acupuncture clinic. Once last week and the next appointment is tomorrow.

Still, this is driving me nuts - I'm not cut out for waiting - it stresses me to no end! When I was younger I was always at least 15 minutes before any appointed time (except for getting to school), mostly I was earlier than that. Only eventually sitting in a waiting room, say at the dentist's, nearly killed me with all those "what if" scenarios. So I eventually started with the "just-in-time" system instead, where my focus could be on getting to my appointment instead of what would happen if the person I was meeting didn't show up and it turned out to be my mistake...
If I wasn't 'there' first I didn't have to think about - "am I in the right place", "is this the correct time"... I was so afraid of making a mistake or being called stupid for not having the correct information!

Then again sitting in waiting rooms have taught me a whole lot about peoples behavior and body language.
Very early on I learned how to use this knowledge to my advantage, to project with my body language what I wanted other people to do or where to go.
The dynamic between people is very interesting and I focused on getting the smoothest 'ride' whenever interacting with people in general, and strangers specifically!

Anyway, I hope you can see the pattern from days gone by, I nearly already lost my way in my own web of words. %-{

In short - I don't do well with waiting around for something outside my control to happen!
So if you have a dance, but instead of calling for rain, you can call for my Bloody Monster, as my friend Circus Princess calls it, please dance it! Dance your heart out for me so I can start taking estrogen pills and get this show on the road!

Tjing -