Getting scared

With every twinge and pinch in my stomach, I almost go into a full-blown panic.
Tomorrow is the day I started bleeding out toward my miscarriage the last time… I'm scared to death to loose this pregnancy too!
My pregnancy symptoms are much stronger and the hCG levels were twice as high this time around, but see in the light of the fact that I may be the reason for the mf this means absolutely nothing!

'm still waiting for my good-for-nothing (I'm exaggerating) ob/gyn to call me with the results of my genetics test. It's been over a week and I would really like to know if I need to start with more medication NOW!
Unfortunately, doctors that are willing to help us women doing treatment abroad with prescriptions, testing and referrals, are far and few between. So choosing a new doctor is next to impossible!

In one week we will have seen at least the gestational sacks, but hopefully also one or two little tiny hearts beating!
I'm keeping my hopes up!